The Debut

I love songwriting.  It gives me an opportunity to tell a story of love and loss, obedience and disregard, prize and regret.  Its therapeutic and honest, especially because I feel like its not right to build a roller coaster if you've never been on one.  I need an outlet for heartbreak sometimes, and I have been blessed with the ability to convey my feelings through the form of song.  

I had the opportunity to spend the last 3 weeks at home for the holidays.  I always look forward to going home these days because I know its a safe place for me to sit and reflect on life and get some good writing done.  I won't lie, during my time at home, I wrote some pretty stupid stuff, but I came out of the 3 weeks with a song that I absolutely love.  It deals with the roller coaster that I have lived for the last 3 months of my life.  A few days ago I finally perfected the lyrics to flow how I wanted them to and began dreaming up the steps into releasing this song to my friends and family, but little did I know it would be released sooner than I expected.

A few days ago a close friend of mine decided to move on from a relationship that she has been in for the last 3 years.  In the amount of time it took for us to receive the text, my friends and I began damage control.  We spent every minute we had with her, assuring her of things we had no place assuring her of.  Unfortunately, we dropped the ball the first few nights.  Then flash forward to 2 nights ago.  I found myself  attempting to comfort a heartbroken friend while still trying to deal my own concerns, and for some reason the only thing I could think of doing was singing the song I had just written a few weeks ago.  After a brief intro, I decided the best idea was to sing the chorus.  "...But now I will never know how you and I can live separate lies and run from the truth that all these words amount to I love you..."  After a few moments of silence, the tears stopped.  She cleared her throat and thanked me, telling me it was beautiful.  For the first time in days she felt comforted in a way that couldn't be explained.  

This moment makes the hours and hours of writing and perfecting worth the trouble.  The fact that I was able to help comfort a friend in her time of need with something that helped comfort me is a beautiful thing.  Sing/talking the lyrics to the chorus of a simple song about love and confusion to a heartbroken friend turned out to be the best release I could have ever hope for.